Naisip ko, pano kaya kung matuloy in the future yung pangarap kong maging Presidente ng bansa. Tapos wala din akong background, tapos sasabak din kagad ako. Tapos mananalo ako. Tapos maitim din ako, aawayin din kaya ako ng mga tao no? Wala lang, futuristic lang. Ang baho kasi nung mouse pad na nabili ko eh. Sumasakit ulo ko. Pero ang ganda ko.

Kung yung mag-asawa magiging Mayor at VMayor dito sa San Mateo, madali siguro magiging pagpaplano nila. Kahit matutulog nalang sila, habang nakahiga, sasabihin ni Mister, “Ipagawa kaya natin yung daan sa churvaloo subd?” Sasagot si Misis, “Unahin natin yung street lights sa brgy. chenelyn.” O kaya pag kumakain sila ng hapunan, pagkainom sasabihin nila, “Ay magpa-feeding program kaya tayo sa Sitio Ibayo?!” Pag magkakasalubong sila sa bahay, biglang “Uy wait, napirmahan mo ba yung papers na iniwan sa desk mo kahapon?” Bumoto na ko. Wala naman na kong magagawa kung sila yung manunumpa one of these days. Pahinga muna sa reklamo, bukas ulit. Hahaha. Sabi nga nila, look on the brighter side nalang daw (kahit msakit tanggapin hihihi) :)

Iniisip ko minsan bakit kaya ako sa PUP nag-aaral ngayon. Bakit hindi ko sineryoso yung UPCAT at kumain lang ako ng Oreo habang nagtetest. Hindi ko man lang yata inisip na yung UP ang gusto ko talagang maging school noon pa. Hanggang ngayon, kapag may nakikita akong batch mate/schoolmate ko nung HS na nakalagay sa FB nila eh “Studying chenelyn cheberlu at University of the Philippines Diliman/Los Baños”, nakakaramdam ako ng inggit. Parang, “Shet, buti pa sya sa UP” Pag nakikita ko yung logo ng UP sa Commonwealth, may kurot (naks!) sa heart. hehehe. Pano kaya kung dun ako nakapasa, dun ako nag-aaral, siguro masaya ako. Kasi yung gusto kong school, yun yung naging school ko talaga. Pero yun nga, sa PUP ako nag-aaral ngayon. Bakit? Bukod sa dito ako pumasa, eh siguro ito yung will ni God.

Do you like this school? Sabi dun sa pinapanood ko. Iinterviewhin daw kasi dapat yung mga estudyante sa school na yun at itatanong yung tanong na yun. Naisip ko, pano kung sakin tinanong yun. Gusto ko ba ang PUP?

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“When you need a break, take a break. You will often find that the world does not crumble when you are resting. Others will move in to take care of those details that you think cannot be done without you.”

Taray. Tamang-tama sa iniisip at gagawin ko. Makakapagpahinga din ng ilang araw. Feeling ko talaga si God yung nagsesend talaga nito sa FB eh. Ang galing! ♥

aillyssenacachi:

“God’s timing is perfect, never too early, never too late”

Whatever it is that you’re going through, please do know that it will get better. If there are things that you don’t understand as of the moment, if you have big, unanswered questions that trouble your mind, when you feel like it’s been years but you’re still stuck on the same page, when you thought everything’s going to be fine but there’s not even a glimpse of hope for it.. I’m telling you, just be patient, and be kind. Your happiness will come. Be patient even if you’re drowning in pain and questions. Be even kinder to yourself and don’t punish yourself by over thinking, by pushing things to happen.

Whatever it is that your heart truly and fully desires, God knows what that is. God knows his plan. He doesn’t want to see you suffering, or frowning all days, He doesn’t want you resenting Him over your problems, He doesn’t want you to lose hope. Instead, He wants you with a strong character, he wants you with a big and fighting heart. He wants the best out of you. 

So, if you experience pain in your life, just be patient and be kind. The best “you” is yet to come. Embrace pain, don’t question Him, instead, trust Him and surrender your whole self to Him. Embrace yourself and your experiences, may it be good or bad. There will always be a lesson. He knows what He’s doing and It’s going to be okay. 

Don’t feel discouraged when it feels hopeless. Fight, renew your heart, and He’ll be there fighting by your side. It might sound/seem absurd at this time. But trusting Him is like seeing that tiny luminary light in a room of darkness and fear. It gives you hope, it gives you strength, it gives you warmth. Whatever it is that you’re going through, just hold on to that light, just hold on to Him.

I am writing this, because right now, I am overflowing with happiness. I used to lurk inside that dark room, afraid, full of questions. But I just learned how to trust Him, I learned how to surrender myself. And He didn’t let me down. He showed me the way out. It’s really true my friends, when you are patient and if you wait and don’t give up, He will give you what you deserve. And what you deserve will always be beautiful and amazing that you’ll see yourself writing something like this out of the overflowing happiness that you feel.

It will end my dear, all the misery and sadness that you feel. Pray and believe, and most especially surrender yourself to Him.

Sobrang sarap lang sa feeling na makausap yung mga hs teachers ko noon na mga kataas-taasan na ngayon dun. Tapos yung pagpasok mo sa office nila eh kahit may kausap silang parent, tumigil sila at niyakap kami. Ramdam na ramdam ko yun. :( Tapos yung isa naman na kinatatakutan namin nun, willing pumunta sa school kahit walang pasok para lang makipagkita samin para mabigay yung pinapatulong namin sa kanila. Ewan. Nakakaiyak lang.

Sabi nila, “Kung sino ang may kailangan, sya ang lumapit.” Paano yung nalulunod? Sya pa rin ba lalapit? Funny? But look beyond the joke. It’s not always the people with worries who should come to aks for help. Sometimes we need to be sensitive enough to know when to make the first move.

AYOKO NA MAGPOST. Nakailang post ako hindi nasasave at natatapos kasi namamatay tong computer na to. Ang sakit sakit na. Tama na. 

Hindi ako iiyak kung hindi ako pagod. Pero dahil siguro napagod na, ayun. Pero keri lang. Life must go on nga daw. Makikihugas nalang ako ng kamay saka magpapalate kasi trip ko lang. Hehehe. Charot. Kailangan ko ng release someday. Yung tipong tutulungan ko yung mga tao sa paligid ko tapos sasabihin ko bumalik sila kung san sila nanggaling 19 years ago para maranasan ko ulit yung feeling dati. Stepsister ni Park Ha ang peg. Hahahaha. Masakit na ulo ko, masakit na puso ko. Charotzxs. de, masakit lang talaga. Pagoda na ko. physically, emotionally, spiritualy at sexually. charot lang ulit. Bye.

Paisa lang okay. Nagreregress na naman mga tao dito. Ay yung isa matagal na pala. Nag-away yata sila tapos yung tatay ko umalis nakakaputa ang arte. Ewan ko kung san nagpunta. Sana umuwi na sya kasi di rin naman ako makakatulog bukod sa may gnagawa pa ko. Yung isa naman hindi ko alam kung tulog talaga o acting lang nakakainis na. Nakakainis lang. Eto kailangan ng family therapy hindi yung grupo namin sa counseling eh. Sarap maglayas para with feelings.